Day 6 of 14, why did it take me so long to write this?
While most bloggers are getting ready to blog about the election, we have other things on our minds. On Day 6 of a 14 day quarantine, my mind is filled with ways to be closer to Ella. We are both feeling the separation. Sometimes more acutely than other times. Fortunately, it was a beautiful fall day on Saturday, a social distanced walk was in order for our troop. Zoom and Facetime are occupying the rainy, cold days when we can’t sit outside together.
Although no ones fault, an exposure has many feelings attached to it. I feel that since March, we have done our best to not only protect ourselves, but also our customers, families and friends. Even though I have to work daily, Monday- Friday in a builidng that takes care of patients with the virus, I have always felt safe. Now I am waiting… I know that my family is safe, I know that most likely, I will be fine, but the waiting is almost demanding in its own way. The waiting is dreadful, filled with dread, making me feel dread. Dread is something that you feel physically, and can be mistaken for symptoms. Filling out a symptom tracker along with taking my temperature twice daily also does not help keep the dread at bay.
Seeing Ella smile is probably the one thing that helps the dread.
So, while Ella and I live apart and socially distance, outside in between my virtual work meetings, please be safe everyone. Wear your mask and socially distance from each other when you are around others. And on election day, do your best to breathe and make the best choice for you. While I won’t be writing about the election, I am writing today about the necessity of taking care of ourselves so that we can take care of our precious others that live with us, or in my case right now, live a bit distanced from me and from my embrace.
To Day 14, I can’t wait to see you.